Sunday, January 20, 2008
17 weeks
Here I am at 17 weeks! It's funny, some weeks the number seems huge and some weeks the number seems so so. This week 17 weeks seems huge and 18 even more so! It's hard to believe that if we wanted to know the sex of the baby (which we don't) we could find out at our next appt. I still don't feel "pregnant". I am tired but in my 2nd trimester I have found my appetite again, boobs hurt less, and I am not nauseaus ever. My belly seems to be growing but I have always had a small pooch so it is just more than small now and doesn't seem that unusual for a gal whose weight fluctuates regularly. I am counting the day s(12 more) until my next OB appt. I am seeing a high risk specialist for the big u/s (I will be 19 weeks!) and then my OB. I have told my students that I am pregnant and the girls are excited (yet really disappointed that I won't be finding out the gender). The boys look at me like- you've had sex and we know it. I want to say- no sex was involved in conceiving this little one! But I am not even dreaming about going there! Thank you for all of your prayers fo rmy SIL's 7 month old cousin. It looks like she is going to be okay. She had a mass removed from her liver and an adrenal gland completely removed. Prayers seem to be working so keep praying. I have to run and take the pups for a walk. More later!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Random update- 16 weeks!
I apologize for being MIA lately. I had a crazy busy week and last weekend was hectic. Hopefully things will slow down a bit and I can get back to blogging...
We decided at the end of last year to enroll our dogs in some intense dog training. They aren't bad persay but they aren't good and don't listen. We found a place that had trained a few of our friend's dogs with lots of success so we went for it. It's a 3 week boarding program where we pick the pups up on Fridays and bring them back Mondays. On Fridays we learn what the dogs learned and how to correct and instruct. We have to work with them all weekend to make sure they know that we are the Alphas and we are in charge. Anyway, so far so good. We have seen some terrific changes in our dogs already and they still have one more week!
On another note, I wore a maternity top to an event this week. I have been in maternity pants for a bit now but can still wear most sweaters and shirts just fine. I had to dress up Wed. for my National Board pinning ceremony and nothing looked right. I broke down and wore a blouse my dad got me for Christmas. Now, we all know that the empire waist look is in so I figured that this shirt could've been worn by anyone pregnant or not. I guess I was wrong because tons of people kept asking me when I was due. I am glad I am pregnant and could give a date! What do women do who are mistaken for expecting when they're not???
I got an email from my SIL (the one struggling with IF) and her baby cousin has cancer. 7 months old and has cancer! How awful! I know that God has reasons for everything but it makes me sad to hear about wee ones suffering. Ughh.
As for me- I am fine. I have noticed an increase in my cravings and appetite this week. I even had a turkey sandwich with pickles for breakfast this a.m.! I am still tired and milking the pregnancy that allows me to go to sleep at 9:30 and sleep until 6:30. I am going to be in for a shock in June! I may have felt the baby move yesterday but doubtful. I have been looking for signs of gas or quickening and yesterday was the first time I felt something. It was high in my rib cage though so that's why I think doubtful. I am still trying to make it until 2/4 for my next doc's appt! That's all for now!
We decided at the end of last year to enroll our dogs in some intense dog training. They aren't bad persay but they aren't good and don't listen. We found a place that had trained a few of our friend's dogs with lots of success so we went for it. It's a 3 week boarding program where we pick the pups up on Fridays and bring them back Mondays. On Fridays we learn what the dogs learned and how to correct and instruct. We have to work with them all weekend to make sure they know that we are the Alphas and we are in charge. Anyway, so far so good. We have seen some terrific changes in our dogs already and they still have one more week!
On another note, I wore a maternity top to an event this week. I have been in maternity pants for a bit now but can still wear most sweaters and shirts just fine. I had to dress up Wed. for my National Board pinning ceremony and nothing looked right. I broke down and wore a blouse my dad got me for Christmas. Now, we all know that the empire waist look is in so I figured that this shirt could've been worn by anyone pregnant or not. I guess I was wrong because tons of people kept asking me when I was due. I am glad I am pregnant and could give a date! What do women do who are mistaken for expecting when they're not???
I got an email from my SIL (the one struggling with IF) and her baby cousin has cancer. 7 months old and has cancer! How awful! I know that God has reasons for everything but it makes me sad to hear about wee ones suffering. Ughh.
As for me- I am fine. I have noticed an increase in my cravings and appetite this week. I even had a turkey sandwich with pickles for breakfast this a.m.! I am still tired and milking the pregnancy that allows me to go to sleep at 9:30 and sleep until 6:30. I am going to be in for a shock in June! I may have felt the baby move yesterday but doubtful. I have been looking for signs of gas or quickening and yesterday was the first time I felt something. It was high in my rib cage though so that's why I think doubtful. I am still trying to make it until 2/4 for my next doc's appt! That's all for now!
Friday, January 4, 2008
Scared and guilty- updated
I feel so guilty that I feel this way today but I do... Scared. I feel like I shouldn't have to feel this way anymore but I am and probably will for the next umpteen years of my life. I have a colleague (she's actually sort of my boss but we are friends so I consider her an equal) who told me she was pregnant also a few days before Christmas. She said she wasn't sure how far along she was at that point but she knew her due date was July 1. July 1??? That's 2 days after me! I was excited that we could enjoy our pregnancies together. Yesterday I got a group email from her saying that she had a "medical emergency" that has caused her to be out of work recovering for the next few days. I immediately emailed her back to find out if everything was okay. Sadly, it's not. She went in for a routine appt. and boom- the world stopped because the baby had died. I just can't believe it. This doesn't happen to other people. It just doesn't seem fair. Selfishly, I am now scared to death that I will follow in her footsteps. I have a dr's appt today and I barely slept last night. Hopefully I will be able to post some relief later today. Say a little prayer for me if you are a praying person- if not- positive thoughts and vibes sent my way would be wonderful! Thank you.
I just got back from an emotional dr's appt. Before I go any further- all is well. The heartbeat was strong and constistant at 158. The Dr. says it must be a boy this time because it took a minute to find the h/b and the doc says boys don't typically cooperate. Of course he said it was a girl last time so ce' la vis! We aren't finding out the gender by the way- just going to wait it out in neutrality. I have strong boy vibes but I think that is because I have 2 nephews and can't imagine a girl. I will be thrilled regardless! Anyway, the emotional part... I stopped by my RE's office to give back a follistim pack that was never used and ran into the RE and his nurse. They were both so positive and excited for me and it just made me so emotional. I felt so much empathy for the women sitting in that waiting room. I will always empathize with the IF world and that really hit me today. I cried the whole way home and I can't really pinpoint why- just that the whole cycle has come almost full circle and things are still looking promising. I don't have another appt for 4 weeks... 4 weeks! That will be the longest I have gone to date! On Feb. 1 I will have my "big" u/s with a high risk specialist and then a follow up that day with my OB. I hope I make it until then! Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers!
I just got back from an emotional dr's appt. Before I go any further- all is well. The heartbeat was strong and constistant at 158. The Dr. says it must be a boy this time because it took a minute to find the h/b and the doc says boys don't typically cooperate. Of course he said it was a girl last time so ce' la vis! We aren't finding out the gender by the way- just going to wait it out in neutrality. I have strong boy vibes but I think that is because I have 2 nephews and can't imagine a girl. I will be thrilled regardless! Anyway, the emotional part... I stopped by my RE's office to give back a follistim pack that was never used and ran into the RE and his nurse. They were both so positive and excited for me and it just made me so emotional. I felt so much empathy for the women sitting in that waiting room. I will always empathize with the IF world and that really hit me today. I cried the whole way home and I can't really pinpoint why- just that the whole cycle has come almost full circle and things are still looking promising. I don't have another appt for 4 weeks... 4 weeks! That will be the longest I have gone to date! On Feb. 1 I will have my "big" u/s with a high risk specialist and then a follow up that day with my OB. I hope I make it until then! Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers!
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