Okay so after I posted yesterday I started feeling crampy. Yesterday was cd 29 (I typically have 32 day cycles) so that caught me off guard. Where is my magic 8-ball when I need her?
M- "Will I be pregnant this month?"
M8B- "Outlook does not look good."
I swear, any insight would help and at this point I just want to know.
I tested this a.m.- Usually I am not an early tester but I discovered the dollar tree tests. (I still can't believe the Dollar Tree has hpts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Well of course it was negative. The hardest part for me is that my past pregnancies (none viable so should be a hint) were so faintly positive that I had a hard time seeing the second line. So now I closely scrutinize the white background and I swear I see something and then I realize it is a glare from the control line. Sucks. FJ is going to NYC this weekend for a Yankees game so I had hoped to send him on the road with good news. Now I will just sit around and anaylyze every cramp as I sign that AF is on her way.

On another note, I have 2 friends from school who got pregnant over the summer. Both with their second, both not trying. Ughhh... I cried when I found out- selfish me. I emailed the closer of the 2 (the one that knows more about my IF) to tell her congratulations since I didn't want it to be awkward when we got back to school. The nice thing is she called me last night. It makes me feel like she cares that she's pregnant and I am not. It feels good that somebody is validating my heartache.